When I came up with the title for this post, I immediately thought of another post, from Day 80, called “Learning from everything (Beginner’s Mind).”
I’ve been doing that a lot lately: remembering Posts from Bloggings Past. I don’t know why, exactly, but here are three guesses:
- I’ve written hundreds of posts, at this point*, so there are lots to choose from.
- New Year’s Eve is approaching, so nostalgia is everywhere.
- Human beings tend to focus on the past.
In the moment, here are some things I am Not Knowing:
- What I am going to say in this post.
- What I am going to do, during the five days I am taking off from work (starting today).
- How I am going to transition this blog, at the end of the year, to whatever it’s going to be next year.
Now, that’s NOT what I expected to be writing about today. I thought I’d be writing, right now, about my mixed feelings about Not Knowing, which run the gamut from fear to love. And there’s a lot I could write about that, because I have so much experience with Not Knowing.
As a matter of fact, here are some things I don’t know, every day:
- What’s going to happen that day.
- What’s really going on with people I meet.
- Every-day details, including names of places, people and things; how to open friggin’ modern packaging; the “right way” to maneuver around other people when I’m walking; many rules of etiquette (including whether anybody even pays attention to those things any more); how to use my computer (and other machines) the way I want to (especially when technology keeps changing); etc. etc.
What do I notice, right now, about that list? I notice that some of them are related to my imperfect memory. Other are related to:
- What other people are thinking.
- The future.
Am I alone, in Not Knowing those things? I think not.
Because Not Knowing can be uncomfortable, I would like to move on, to something I DO know, before I end this post.
I know that I love seeing these things in my office, every day I’m at work:
And I don’t KNOW, but I think I’ll be seeing those again, next Thursday.
Thanks to Erik Gehring for the photograph “Willow Island,” to the artist who painted that lovely landscape (whose name escapes me now**), and to everybody who’s read anything I’ve ever written, which would include you — of course! — today.
* Personally, I find that amazing.
** And which I hope I will know again, soon.