Day 362: Not Knowing

When I came up with the title for this post, I immediately thought of another post, from Day 80, called “Learning from everything (Beginner’s Mind).”

I’ve been doing that a lot lately: remembering Posts from Bloggings Past.  I don’t know why, exactly, but here are three guesses:

  1. I’ve written hundreds of posts, at this point*, so there are lots to choose from.
  2. New Year’s Eve is approaching, so nostalgia is everywhere.
  3. Human beings tend to focus on the past.

In the moment, here are some things I am Not Knowing:

  1. What I am going to say in this post.
  2. What I am going to do, during the five days I am taking off from work (starting today).
  3. How I am going to transition this blog, at the end of the year, to whatever it’s going to be next year.

Now, that’s NOT what I expected to be writing about today. I thought I’d be writing, right now, about my mixed feelings about Not Knowing, which run the gamut from fear to love.  And there’s a lot I could write about that, because I have so much experience with Not Knowing.

As a matter of fact, here are some things I don’t know, every day:

  1. What’s going to happen that day.
  2. What’s really going on with people I meet.
  3. Every-day details, including names of places, people and things; how to open friggin’ modern packaging; the “right way” to maneuver around other people when I’m walking; many rules of etiquette (including whether anybody even pays attention to those things any more); how to use my computer (and other machines) the way I want to (especially when technology keeps changing); etc. etc.

What do I notice, right now, about that list?   I notice that some of them are related to my imperfect memory. Other are related to:

  • What other people are thinking.
  • The future.

Am I alone, in Not Knowing those things?  I think not.


Because Not Knowing can be uncomfortable, I would like to move on, to something I DO know, before I end this post.

I know that I love seeing these things in my office, every day I’m at work:




And I don’t KNOW,  but I think I’ll be seeing those again, next Thursday.

Thanks to Erik Gehring for the photograph “Willow Island,” to the artist who painted that lovely landscape (whose name escapes me now**),  and to everybody who’s read anything I’ve ever written, which would include you — of course! —  today.

* Personally, I find that amazing.

** And which I hope I will know again, soon.

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18 thoughts on “Day 362: Not Knowing

  1. I don’t know what to say about his post, Ann, except that I have trouble with modern packaging, too. That means my takeaway is: We are not alone in our not knowing. And that’s a good thing to know. Enjoy your time off from work!

    • For somebody who didn’t know what to say, you sure said a lot, Mark. Hey, I learned something, again, from you! Thanks for reading and commenting, as always.

  2. At this writing, many people have “like”d this post, but WordPress is saying that nobody has. I am Not Knowing why that is. C’est la vie! I hope this too shall pass.

    Ten minutes later: All better! It was, apparently, related to the friggin’ operating system on my friggin’ laptop, because I restarted that, and Voila! All those beautiful “like”s, with all those beautiful avatars, are there.

    30 minutes later: Wait! I spoke too soon! The “like”s have disappeared again, but only on my laptop. I do Not Know why. And Arrrghh! Some of the photos in this post are appearing way too small, right now.


    I am Not Know-ing why WordPress does glitchy things, sometimes, on my laptop. I don’t know if I’ll ever know. I shall now ask myself this question: Does it matter, in the great scheme of things? Answer: No.

    The End (of this comment)

    P.S. One more thing — I may have fixed it, in an ironic/extraordinary way: by liking my own post! If that’s not a permanent fix, I’m still glad I did that.

  3. embrace the unknown! new theme for the New Year ;p

  4. The unknown can be uncomfortable, but when it becomes known, it is usually so beautiful!

  5. I’ve found today that I know so little compared to what I thought I did yesterday. Funny how getting caught up in life, when the rug gets pulled out from under you, you find yourself on your back with a very different perspective. I am glad I have been able to bounce back with relative ease. Thanks for your encouraging comment on my blog earlier today, I really appreciated that 🙂

    Awesome willow island picture! Willows are my favorite tree, and have shown up in many of my poems through the years!

    • I really appreciate your expressing your thoughts here, too, and am glad to hear that you have bounced back with relative ease, and that you were encouraged by my heart-felt comment. And I love willows, too!

  6. You posts always make me reflect Ann, which is a good thing because sometimes I get caught up in the busy-ness of the day. The only thing I know is that change is constant, sometimes it will be good , sometimes it will be bad, but with hope , and the support of others, we will bounce back as fergusandthedruid said! Oh yes , one more thing , being a very urban person up to recently I didn´t really know a thing about tress. I didn´t even KNOW what a willow tree looked like till I read some posts on these blogs, maybe it was your post..”fergus”….so that is something I now “know” which was previosly unknown…we learn , we grow , we change. and then there are more unknowns. 😉

    • Your comments make me reflect, too. After reading your comment, I knew more and felt better than I did before reading it. In other words, your comment changed me, for the better. Thanks so much.

  7. what I don’t understand is that music companies know that none of us can get the damn plastic off of a CD yet they still make it impossible to open…its like they are trying to force us to only by music via the net and they want to make CD’s obsolete…I dunno

    • I don’t know either, Kenneth. And I wish I could say I only have conspiracy theories about CD’s. I can also have them about snack bags, small electronic devices, pretty much everything that makes me go “WTF?!?!” as I’m struggling to open it. Thanks for this easy-to-open comment, today.

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  9. Linda Lintz


    That picture entitled, Willow Island, looks just like Horn Pond in Woburn where I have fond memories of going sailing with my dad. My dad has been gone since 2003, and those memories came flooding back…

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