Day 3970: Why do I feel so stupid?

On the 3970th day of this daily blog, why do I feel so stupid?

Lots of reasons, including

• The email on my phone stopped updating with new messages on Sunday.
• When I searched for solutions to the problem online, there was a recommendation for me to delete the cache and I couldn’t do the steps suggested on my phone.
• I don’t know what or where the cache is in that context.
• I tried to make a Genius Bar appointment at my local Apple Store and couldn’t do that either, despite trying several times.
• When I was on a chat with an Apple support person this morning and started updating my phone, he wrote “I hope you created a backup before you did that” and I had to reply “Ooops. No. Am I in trouble?”
• Technology issues like this make me feel so stupid that I feel the urge to explain to the support person why I am not as stupid as I seem.
• Another Apple support person just asked me to sign into my email provider’s website on my phone and I had to tell him (1) I don’t know how to do that, (2) I don’t think I remember my password, and (3) I’m writing a blog post about how stupid I feel about all this.
• He just wrote “No need to beat yourself up” so he is obviously smarter than I am.

Actually, he helped me fix the problem really easily and now I no longer feel as stupid as I did five minutes ago.

But why do I feel so stupid if I encounter problems with technology when I know that I’m not alone in that?

Why do I feel so stupid if I have proven to myself and others many times that I am not stupid at all?

Why do I feel so stupid if I constantly tell people in therapy that labels like “stupid” are toxic and just wrong?

Why do I feel so stupid and annoyed if I’m talking in a meeting and somebody interrupts me?

Why do I feel so stupid when I can’t think of a better segue to start sharing my images for today?

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Why do I feel so stupid when I have trouble making trivial decisions, like which list of daily holidays to share with people?

Here’s what I find on YouTube when I search for “why do I feel so stupid?”

I also find this:

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Richard Feynman felt stupid, too!

Thanks to all who help me feel better no matter how stupid I feel, including YOU!