653 days ago (but who’s counting?) I wrote a post titled “Accepting all feelings” wherein I described feelings I was having about open heart surgery. Yesterday morning, I had many feelings when I kept screwing up my INR blood test because I was rushing to get to Physical Therapy for my injured shoulder. After my INR home monitor had rejected my THIRD attempt to test a blood sample, I had so many bad feelings that I lost it.
As I was F-bombing my way around our home, I woke up Michael, who heard this exchange.
Me: F — all of this! I can’t stand it any more!
Oscar: Meow!
Me: F— you, Oscar!
Michael thought I had finally lost it because of my feelings about Oscar. And I do have feelings when Oscar sleeps on my injured shoulder, walks and sits on my laptop when I’m trying to blog (like now), gives me love bites (like now), and almost trips me every day when I’m going down the stairs and trying to get out of the house on time. However, I accept that Oscar does these things because he wants to be close to me, which is usually a good feeling.
After I made it to Physical Therapy on time, got help from people at work in capturing an adequate blood sample, and discovered that my INR reading was okay, it was easier to accept my feelings because they were better.
Soon after that, I facilitated a therapy group where people talked about lots of feelings. I suggested that people work on accepting all feelings by writing down their feelings and illustrating them.
I accept all feelings about my photos from yesterday.
Here’s what I found on YouTube about “accepting all feelings.”
Watching the ocean definitely helps me accept all feelings.
I hope you accept all my feelings of gratitude, here and now.
The Year(s) of Living Non-Judgmentally 