Yesterday, I went to a conference feeling some disappointment, anger, insecurity, and other uncomfortable feelings, but also hopeful that I would learn some things.
Part of my ensemble for the day was my t-shirt, proclaiming that I am the longest surviving person in the world with a pacemaker.
I made that choice because (1) I wanted to dress down rather than up (since that seemed more of a “fit” for where I was) and (2) my wearing that “bragging right” was inspired by another participant at that same conference, two years ago.
I started out the day, wondering what I would do with all those uncomfortable feelings I mentioned in the first paragraph, which had born out of my public “failure” at that conference: that is, (1) my having finally decided to be a workshop presenter rather than just a participant and (2) said Sunday workshop being cancelled due to low registration numbers.
I participated in a wonderful, all-day group, about Courage in Groups, where I learned a lot from the other people there. I expressed a lot of my feelings, including the difficult ones. I witnessed people demonstrating courage by being vulnerable, trying new things, and risking shame in front of people they didn’t know before.
The people in my group liked my t-shirt, and they suggested that I make and wear two other ones, including:
Beautiful when angry
Failure is just a construct
Today, it’s occurring to me that merchandising might be the answer to my yearnings for fame and fortune. Here are some possible Year of Living Non-Judgmentally t-shirts:
Are you trying to sell me something?
Alone in the presence of others
Left the house before I felt ready
Hero of my own story
Woke up this morning feeling uneasy
My path (with a picture of the ascending coil)
This is the only thing I can change
Good enough AND making it better
Losing my investment in the outcome
Working on my to do list
Trying one weird trick
Figuring it out
Owing people e-mails
Wow! It looks like many of my blog posts could be t-shirts, people.
I’m shortening this blog post, only because I need to focus on the second day of the conference.
I’ll be contacting intellectual property lawyers about this whole t-shirt scheme.
Thanks for reading, today, and feel free to place advance orders.
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