The title is something my mother used to say to me. It’s a good title for today’s post, I think, because I finally completed this:
Here are some thoughts and feelings I’m having, today:
I don’t want to mind-read (because that would be a cognitive distortion), but I do wonder if others are having certain thoughts now, like these:
“Did you leave ME anything?”
“I know I’m new, more skittish (therefore more blurry), and probably not quite as loved yet, but … did you leave ME anything?”
I probably AM projecting onto others, here. But it’s difficult not to do that, you know?
Anyway, it was quite a process, completing that will. I mean, it took 60 friggin’ years. And, as Indiana Jones said:
“It’s not the years, honey, it’s the mileage.”*
Speaking of mileage, here are some shots I took, yesterday, on my journey to sign that will:
The building on the left is where my parents lived their last years together. That’s where I saw my father, for the last time, in 1997. I am so grateful for that encounter, still. Before I left that day, he said to me, “Give me five,” holding his hand up high. I replied, “I’ll give you ten,” and I gave him a hug.
Here’s another, clearer shot of that building:
My parents lived on the second floor, on the right.
Here’s where I spent a lot of hours, as a kid, reading and choosing books to take home:
When I took those books home, this is similar to what I would see:
And this is where I read those books:
This is what I sometimes saw, when I would leave my home, back then:
When I visited yesterday, I did see some new things, including this:
It’s nice that some people can attain Nirvana every day, isn’t it?
Here’s a photo (taken when I was heading back home last night) that’s related to that, I believe:
I hope I remember that flashy Stop sign** the next time I have a thought that doesn’t help me. Because, the more I can let go of unhelpful thoughts, the more I can do these things (suggested by a bumper sticker last night):
And I’ve got some time to do those, apparently, because a lawyer promised me, yesterday, that signing my will wouldn’t kill me.
Being a lawyer, he immediately added, “And if it does, at least now you have a will.”
Thanks to all who contributed to creating this post and — of course!! — to you, for visiting.
* I wanted to find a sound or video clip for that, but c’est la vie.
** Check out the antidote of “Thought Stopping,” here.