Yesterday, at the end of a day when I had feared many outcomes that did not come to pass, I texted my friend, Jenn:
I will never fear again.
I will never fear again making statements like that. I have felt too much fear in my life and I fearlessly love the idea that I will never fear again.
I will never fear again sharing my photos with you.
I will never fear again sharing details of my life with you, like these:
- On my way to Disney World I got the results of my 23andme DNA genetic test, which said I had “less than the average tendency to be afraid of heights.” After a life where I’ve been afraid of heights, I decided to believe that report and never fear heights again.
- While my boyfriend Michael and I feared that he had seriously scratched up my little yellow car with an ice scraper, I was able to get most of them off by fearlessly and vigorously running my thumb over them while it was still cold as ice. I will never fear again somebody doing damage to my car.
- People in my group yesterday found it helpful to make lists of “Too Much” and “Too Little.” I will never fear again suggesting an exercise in one of my groups.
- One of my patients made me a beautiful red hat. I will never fear again accepting a gift like that.
I will never fear again asking my readers a question like this: what do you think would happen if you decided to never fear again?
I will never fear disco or Panic! At The Disco again.
I will never fear again requesting comments for a blog post.
I will never fear again expressing my authentic feelings, including gratitude for all who helped me create this post without fear and — of course! — YOU.
Categories: group therapy, personal growth, photojournalism
Tags: "Awakening the Heroes Within", "I'd Rather Be in Charge", "This is Gospel", 23andme, group therapy exercise, letting go of fear, Panic! at the Disco, the power of thought, tilapia dish, Wish Wand