This post was inspired by many things, this morning, including:
- A blogger I greatly appreciate, prayingforoneday, nominated me for “The Versatile Blogger” award.
- Another blogger I greatly appreciate, sittingonmysofa, wrote that she had tried nominating me for that award, too, “although I sensed a humble hesitation on your part about accepting any awards.”
I love that phrase, “humble hesitation.” That reminds me of ambivalence, which was a topic of yesterday’s post.
And sittingonmysofa was correct. I AM ambivalent about accepting awards.
- I wonder if I’m deserving.
- I’m concerned about doing “the right thing“ in response.
- It takes me a lot of time to respond to the nominations, especially if I am concerned about responding “the right way.”
- I haven’t quite figured out what my personal “right way” is.
I haven’t decided, yet, what I would like to do, when nominated for an award here. And each time, throughout the year, my response has been somewhat different.
I’ve noticed what other people do, in response to awards. There’s a whole range of behaviors.
Some people follow the rules of each award exactly. That’s great.
Some people indicate, on their blogs, that they do not accept awards. That’s great, too.
Some people are in the middle — they follow some of the rules of the award. Or they respond in spirit, somehow.
I appreciate other people’s decisions about What To Do, In Response to Awards.
I especially appreciate those who are clear about their stance on awards.
I love clarity.
However, I am not in a clear place about this, yet. I can’t clearly communicate to people what I want, regarding awards here. Not yet. I assume I will get to that place. But I’m not there, yet, in this moment.
And I have to admit, I have some judgment about my own ambivalence — about being in middle of a process of deciding what works for me. Regarding awards, and other things, too.
Okay! I am ambivalent about some aspects of this post, but it’s time to wrap things up. And I KNOW there’s something else I wanted to write about, today.
I’m going back to the title of my post, now.
I associate the word “humble” with this man:
… but I don’t associate the word “hesitation” with him.
However, when I read his words carefully, I am learning something from him, again.
I want to rewrite this old adage:
He who hesitates is lost.
Those who hesitate are human.
AND let’s add this, too, today:
Take the next step, as best you can.
Thanks to Nelson Mandela, for yesterday, today, and tomorrow. And thanks to prayingforoneday, sittingonmysofa, all the other bloggers here whose paths have crossed with mine, and to you — no matter where you are — for reading today.
* I found this image here.
** I found this image here.