Why am I anxious today?
Oh, so many reasons, and so little little time to list them, this morning.
1. Technology, for cripe’s sake.
I am all for trying new things — with a brave, adventurous, and confident spirit, whenever I can muster it — but technology is proceeding at a rate that seems to be leaving me in a confused dust, too much of the time.
And I am a quick learner, people. Others remark on how quick I am. “Wow! What a quick learner you are, Ann!” they are likely to say, without undo prompting from me. And yet, I am in a constant state of dizziness regarding what I have to learn JUST TO KEEP UP these days.
An example might help here, I suppose. (Although I am imagining that you just might be filling in with your own examples, at this point.)
E-mail!
Ah, e-mail! How do I fear thee … let me count the ways.
- There’s way too much of it.
- I have trouble keeping track of it.
- Just when I think I’ve grasped the rudimentary necessities for E-mail Survival, a new version of my e-mail service comes along — WITHOUT MY CHOICE OR CONSENT — which screws up my already tentative grip on it.
- It’s designed to destroy my life. That might sound dramatic, but here’s one example: In the handy-dandy, instant access clickable group of icons for each of my e-mails, THE FLAG ICON IS RIGHT NEXT TO THE GARBAGE ICON. So what’s the inevitable result, if your hand is slightly unsteady, because of too-much-e-mail-induced anxiety? Just this: When I see an e-mail I need to flag NOW, just to keep it bobbing above the sea of other important but less important e-mails, I am just as likely to erroneously stick it in the garbage can. And vice versa.
- Arrrrghhhhh!
(pant, pant, pant)
Now where was I? Oh, yes, I started a list of things that were making me anxious today, and technology was #1. Okay! Time to move on.
2. Isn’t technology enough of a reason, people?
Thanks for reading today. (And if you have any hints about how to help me reduce my anxiety, I am all ears and eager to hear.)
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