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Day 585: Ouch!

I woke up in the middle of the night.


My nose AND the right side of my mouth hurt.


Is this caused by the Continuous Positive Air Pressure (CPAP) machine I recently got? Or  is this a dental problem?  Or both? Or neither?

I can’t tell.


Sometimes I wonder if:

  1.  my undergoing so many surgeries in my life,  starting when I was a kid, and
  2. medical professionals differing so much in their reactions to pain …

… have interfered with my ability to have “normal” pain reactions.

I can’t tell.


Sometimes when I wake up in the middle of the night, I have trouble getting back to sleep.


I especially want to have good enough sleep tonight, because I’m seeing my son in “Assassins” the musical, in approximately 16 hours.


And Yay!

I have some ideas about other words and photos to add to this post, later.


I think I’ll be able to fall back asleep now.

I did fall back asleep, but not before I thought of a song to share with you, today — Agua De Beber performed by Sergio Mendes and Brasil 66.

(YouTube video found here)

Why Agua de Beber (which means “water to drink”)?  For one thing, that song helped bring me joy, at a time I needed to deal with a lot of pain.

For another thing, Bossa Nova rocks!

Here are some photos I want to show you, before I dance off to work:




Two more photos, for this post:

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Yay!  That’s a flashy (and non-flashy) view of my California-dwelling friend Lawry, whom I first met in 7th grade. Lawry, along with his family, most recently appeared here in Day  517: What is the theme of this post? Lawry  — who is in Boston for a Law Convention — called me up, last night, at work, and asked if we could have dinner together. I knew that would be okay with bf Michael, who is always engrossed in cleaning our place on Thursday evenings (my late night at work). And it was.

I was so glad I could have a spontaneous dinner with my old friend Lawry.  To repeat, Yay!

Lawry has been a  supporter of this blog, since I started writing. However, when I asked him last night if he’d been reading lately, he shook his head “no.”


He told me he stopped reading when I switched the settings here, forcing  readers to go to this site, if they want to read a full post.

Lawry and I  joked and laughed, last night, about how ONE EXTRA CLICK can seem like too much, when people are very busy with work, family, and other aspects of their lives.

In honor of Lawry and our friendship, today I’m switching that WordPress setting, back. Why?  Because — as I said, earlier in the day, to a patient who was signing up for my group therapy sessions at work — I want to give people as much access, in the easiest ways possible, to helpful connections.

Friendship — and other connections with humanity — is water to drink, for me.

Thanks to my son Aaron, Michael, Lawry, Sergio Mendes and Brasil 66, Antonio Carlos Jobim (for composing Agua De Beber), and to you — of course! — no matter how you made your way here today.

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Day 580: Not there yet

“Not there yet” just popped into my head, as the title for today’s post.

Next thought, there:  Are We There Yet? is yet  another tune I adore, by Pat Metheny and Lyle Mays.

(That YouTube video is there yet)

I am not there yet, regarding:

  •  my new and breezy snooze-atron/Sandman “Sam”/CPAP machine.  In other words, Continuous Positive Airway Pressure is just not there yet, while I’m sleeping.  I may need a different mask.
  • my capacity to whole-heartedly accept and believe compliments (and other positives) and to not fear envy (and other perceived dangers). Yet, there’s obvious progress there.
  • the Fringe Festival in Edinburgh. My son and I are leaving on a jet plane for Scotland, in mid-August.
  • my ability to respond back to people — here and elsewhere — quickly and perfectly. I’m not there yet and I never will be.

I may not be there yet, regarding all those things (and more), but …

I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

And I’m glad I’m there, because many I love are there, too.

Here are  some photos from where I was, yesterday:

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Are we there yet?

Thanks to all, no matter where you are.

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