My incredibly profound friend Deb, who is social distancing in Florida, sent me this text yesterday:
I found it incredibly profound that Deb sent me that photo of her wearing her “Left the house before I felt ready” tee, which I created after publishing Day 166: The Year of Living Non-Judgmentally Merchandise: T-Shirts.
Is it incredibly profound that I texted back “That’s going in the blog tomorrow. If I had any energy I would market it”?
It’s incredibly profound that
- we’re all experiencing this coronavirus pandemic together,
- there are so many unknowns about the virus,
- the news is frightening, and
- nobody knows what the future will be.
Are any of these other images incredibly profound?
Is it incredibly profound that I wrote this song based on the t-shirt Deb is wearing?
I LEFT THE HOUSE BEFORE I FELT READY
I left the house before I felt ready.
I’m wrinkled, distracted, a little bed-heady.
Don’t know where my phone is, one glove, or umbrella.
My water bottle’s probably somewhere in the cellah.
Here on the outside I’m sort of unsteady
When I’ve left the house before I felt ready.
I left the house before I felt certain
What clothes to wear, should I tuck my shirt in?
Should I eat a banana, a cookie, a peach?
Do something productive or go to the beach?
With indecision I’m strugglin’ and hurtin’
Because I left the house before I felt certain.
I left the house before I was sure
Of what I could tolerate, face, or endure.
Should I stick to what’s safe or try something new?
Taking risks — tsk tsk tsk — not the right thing to do?
I might meet someone sweet or step into manure
If I’ve left the house before I felt sure.
I have left the house, I can recall,
To work, to sing, to shop at the mall.
If I waited until I was sure not to fall
I’d never leave the house at all!
I left the house before I felt ready,
I’m vulnerable, present, and reasonably steady.
I’m glad to be here even if it’s not home.
Even if my hair needs a brush or a comb.
I’m not totally sure or secure, this it true.
But I’m certain I’m ready enough to meet you.
© Ann Koplow, 2018
I look forward to your incredibly profound comments about this blog post. Even if you don’t think your thoughts and feelings are incredibly profound, I do.
Incredibly profound thanks to all who help me create these daily blog posts, including YOU.