What I’m not saying, here and now, includes many things, because I still have laryngitis.
However, I’m returning to work today, where I will do my best to encourage people to share in therapy what they’re not saying elsewhere in their lives.
Here’s a partial list of what I’m not saying:
- Some people scare me.
- I sometimes fear other people’s anger as well as my own anger.
- I miss my son (who is attending University in Edinburgh) and my late friend Michelle.
- I’m glad to be home.
- When I’m away from work for vacation, I fear I’ve forgotten what I need to know to be a good therapist.
- When I name my fears, they seem more manageable.
- If I’m confused, I can take a breath and some time to choose the next right thing to do.
- I used to have recurring dreams of not being able to speak.
- Communicating effectively is very important to me.
- I will do my best to say things non-verbally today.
Whenever I put what I’m not saying into words, I feel better. See how it works?
Let’s see what I’m saying and not saying in my photos from yesterday.
What I’m not saying about that last picture includes this:
- I’ve had that little book since I attended Berklee in the summer when I was in high school.
- Those notations include the melody line and some chords for my fourth original song, “Shameless Appeals for Applause.”
- When I was on a boat in Iceland recently, the man standing next to me was saying that he was proud of his son, who had recently graduated from Berklee.
What I’m not saying includes the fact that in the 1990s, I helped create Berklee College of Music’s recruitment video. What I’m not saying is that I haven’t figured out a way to share that video here.
I’m not saying which of these “I’m Not Sayin'” performances I like best.
I’m not saying that those are three different songs but I am saying that I found all three on YouTube here, here, and here.
I’m not saying who wrote that song but you can find that out here.
What I’m not saying, until now, includes saying thanks to Gordon Lightfoot, The Replacements, Nico, Oscar, Harley, Berklee, Iceland, all those who are healing the best they can, and — of course! — YOU.
Naming our fears, sometimes I forget to do that and they gain momentum. Thank you for reminding me of this. I heard you!