Day 915: Look at me!

Before I got my current job as a psychotherapist at a major teaching hospital in Boston, I worked for 12 years at a group-oriented  psychiatric day program — first as a clinician and then as the director.

Look at me! I’ve been a group therapist for over 16 years!

The staff at the psychiatric day program often noticed something we called

See me/Don’t see me

Here are other ways I’d describe that very common, human way of behaving, right now:

  • Fear of being exposed
  • Yearning for attention/fear of attention
  • Accepting parts of self/rejecting others
  • Trying new and unfamiliar things/the shame reaction
  • I deserve attention/I am not worthy of it

See me/Don’t see me, in this post!  I already have mixed feelings about how I’m writing it.

Look at me! I’m digressing from the big news of this July 4, 2105 blog post.  Yesterday,  I had the day off from work and I went to see the musical Newsies in Boston

Look at me! I’m in Harvard Square, on my way to Newsies. 



Look at me! I took a picture of Peet’s in Harvard Square, where my bf Michael and I first looked at each other five years ago  (after writing each other daily for two months online at OkCupid). 
Look at me, back on my way to see Newsies!




Look at John! He’s one of the security guys at the Boston Opera House. He used to work as a parole officer and he told me, “My wife tells me to smile in pictures, but I say, ‘That hurts!'”

Look at me,  at yesterday’s matinee performance of Newsies!


Look at me showing you how the lead role of Jack Kelly (played by Christian Bale in the 1992 film) was performed  by an understudy, Michael Ryan.

Look at me! I don’t have any pictures of Michael Ryan and how AMAZING he was, including his grateful tears when we all gave him a standing ovation at the end of the show.

Look at these photos I took on my way back home, after seeing Newsies:



Look at me! I just spent an hour looking for this video made 8 years ago by three girls in the United Kingdom, performing “King of New York,” my favorite song from Newsies:

If you look at that video on YouTube, you’ll see that I wrote a comment four years ago, and they answered me!

Look at me! I forgot to mention that “King of New York” includes the line

Look at me! I’m the King of New York.

Look at all these people performing “King of New York”!

Look at you! What do you think of this post today? Look at me —  as usual,  I’m looking for comments.

Thanks to everybody I’ve ever worked with in group therapy, to Newsies, to Michael, to OkCupid, to security guy  John, to understudy/star Michael Ryan, to Harvard Square, to Boston, to all those  who have ever sung or danced to “King of New York,” to all the kings, queens, princes, and princesses I saw in Cambridge and Boston yesterday, and special thanks to you — of course! — for looking here, today.

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56 thoughts on “Day 915: Look at me!

  1. What a journey you’ve brought us on! I love it, all the steps, all the shares. I especially can’t get the flow chart for ice cream out of my head.

  2. Look at me.” My name is Ann Curry, and I used to co-host the Today show. When they fired me, they lost a lot of viewers, and few would look at Matt Lauer the same way ever again.”

    Her undoing by NBC execs was known as “Operation Bambi” because of the effect it might have. They were right. I have never, ever watched NBC’s Today show since that time.

    p.s. Sorry, Ann…the parade from 2011 just reminded me. I, too, love the ice cream photo. ☺ Happy 4th !

    • Look at Van! She feels the same way about Ann Curry and Matt Lauer as I do. No need to apologize. Happy 4th, Van!!

  3. More excellent pics, but, unless you are behind the turtle’s head, I don’t see you

  4. Ann, I think it’s super cool that you and your bf first met online! Happy 4th to you, Michael and Aaron! ❤
    Diana xo

    • Look at Diana, leaving this super cool comment! Happy 4th to you, from all of us here. ❤ ❤ ❤ xo xo xo

  5. So glad you found Michael 🙂

  6. Look at you Ann!! Such a huge fan of Newsies and sharing it with the world. You got my attention that’s for sure!!

  7. I look at you every time I come here, Ann, and I always like what I see.

  8. Look at me – I’m speechless! But, I love the photos and the tour, Ann. 😉

  9. I’m so glad to hear more about your life as it seems so exciting; so full of growth and stories to tell. Your blog is like an adventure.

  10. Look at me!

    Oh Ann, don’t listen to this fur-ball.

  11. See me/don’t see me has come up in discussion today in a different context. Writers need to say look at me, look at my book and yet most can’t bring themselves to say even the first part. We are very perverse. A couple of years back, instead of being elated when an agent rang me, I was cast into a state of anxiety at the whole notion of becoming visible.
    Thank you for keeping me up to date, I hadn’t heard of Newsies.

    • Look at Hilary! And look at me, so pleased to see her and also expressing a guess that it’s not so much perverse as introverted.

  12. Stop the Presses! Look at Ann, oh, joy! All the Newsies that’s fit to print. Some days I have been the King of (Syracuse) New York, and it is good.

  13. Look at you in a pretty red shirt- hope you had some ice cream after seeing such a wonderful show!!

  14. The photos that you share here in this post are great ~ full of life and adventure, and yes a bit of that “look at me” feeling that we all have inside us. Wonderful!

  15. Bob

    I had something I wrote than worried people would see then decided I didn’t care. I’m not sure how I feel now. I have three weeks till I return … with a new concoction adjusting here and there. It’s all good.

  16. Look at the awesome pictures!

  17. I love looking at your world through your lens! Look at me looking at your world through your lens! Look at you taking amazing pictures and sharing them! I love the way the pictures flow together! In addition to enjoying your song choice, look at me finding other songs to sing because of your post: Somewhere over the Rainbow (from your Rainbow pic) and Bridge over Troubled Water… look at me finding 2 songs with the word “over”! Look at you inspiring more people with your lens and your views!

  18. Pingback: Day 2314: Look at me! | The Year(s) of Living Non-Judgmentally

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