Since my heart-related surgery 12 days ago, many things have been looking up, including me.
Almost every time I looked up where I work last week, I saw people looking up to each other in group and individual therapy. Looking up at them, as they worked on looking up in their lives, I heard language like
“Staying above it all”
The language of looking up affects how we look at things, I believe.
Yesterday, I saw the following images, as I was looking up:
Looking up at those photos, I see the familiar and the unexpected. What do you see, when you are looking up?
This photo …
… which I took looking up in the cafeteria at work, reminds me that when we look up, we often see birds (and, sometimes, gluten-free food).
Speaking of birds, as I’m looking up ahead to my June audition for the musical Follies (with music by Stephen Sondheim, whom I greatly look up to), I’m looking up at this bird-related Sondheim song as a possible audition piece:
Looking up at that video, I wonder if I’m setting my sights (and my voice) too high with “Green Finch and Linnet Bird” from Sweeney Todd. Things will probably look up if I imagine my audience looking up at me, while I’m singing, with appreciation and approval.
If more upbeat music and lyrics help you look up, I just heard Los Lobos, in “A Matter of Time,” sing
It will be all right
As I’m looking up at this post I’ve just written, I want to express something else about “looking up.”
After dealing with scary uncertainties and difficult decisions (especially about my health) — as I have the last six months — it can be difficult to put all that aside and focus on looking up.
Things are definitely looking up today, in that regard. I suppose it was only a matter of time.
I’m looking up, with thanks, to people I work with, to all those who help us find our way, to my fellow social worker Lauren, to worms and bots, to Fenway Park, to Wild Willie’s in Watertown Massachusetts, to Stephen Sondheim, to cast members of Sweeney Todd, to finches of all colors, to linnet and ceramic birds, to Los Lobos, and to you — of course! — for looking up, here and now.