Somebody said this in my office yesterday, during a therapy session:
In that question, I heard all this:
- Am I to blame?
- Am I the only one?
- Am I not seeing things clearly?
- Am I strange?
How might YOU hear, ask, or answer that question …
Today, I’m feeling sick and running a fever.
It’s definitely me, Ann Koplow, running fevers between 99 and 101 F, since I got home from work last night.
Last year, I wrote this post about running a fever, which turned out to be pneumonia, which kept me out of work for over a month.
I don’t like to stay out of work that long, because I love what I do as an individual and group therapist.
My doctors and I have a plan that I should get tested whenever I run a fever, to prevent the possibility of endocarditis — an inflammation of the heart I’ve had three time before.
You might be thinking now:
Shouldn’t Ann go get tested? Like NOW?”
Never fear; I have emailed my doctors to see what they advise.
I have a preference to NOT go into the hospital to see doctors any time soon, especially since my birthday is three days away.
I don’t think that’s just me. Who would want to be in the hospital on their birthday?
I don’t know if you notice, but I tend to catastrophize worst case scenarios. “I have a fever! Oh NO! It’s something AWFUL! I’m going to be in the hospital ON MY BIRTHDAY!!”
Actually, catastrophizing and quickly going to worst case scenarios is NOT just me. I witness people doing that all the time, in individual and group therapy.
It’s me, again, letting you know that I heard back from Dr. Salem, my incredibly speedy and wonderful cardiologist, telling me that I should go in to the hospital today and get tested for flu and endocarditis.
I don’t think it’s just me who would have this reaction: I don’t want to go out in the cold and soon-to-be-snowy conditions, here in the Northeastern USA. However, I will. I’m a very good patient (I’ve had lots of practice) and I completely trust my doctors.
… before I end this post. Am I alone in thinking all these photos are interesting and beautiful, in their own way?
Many thanks to Dr. Salem and to everybody who has ever thought or said, “Is it me?”
Is it you?