As I explained, way back on Day 105 of this year, everything makes sense on some level(s).
The main point of that old blog post was this:
You will relate to my (or anybody else’s) experience in some ways, but not in others, because my experience (like yours) has been unique.
But I’m going to let go of the past (that 200-day-old blog post) and be more in the moment, right now.
It’s the first day of November. I have lots of reactions to the month of November.
And they all make sense, on some level.
You may relate to some of my reactions but not to others, because of where you are.
Some of my reactions to November:
- It’s autumn in New England, and I’m a wuss about the coming cold, so I’m still not happy about that.
- At this point, though, I’ve let go of denial and am working on acceptance. That includes embracing the beauty of what is. For example, this past week, all the mindfulness exercises I did in therapy groups focused on leaves I gathered outside of work. (None of those leaf photos are mine, but those images remind me of the leaves we used, in mindfulness.)
- November, to me, means November 22nd. November 22nd, 1963, was the day President John F. Kennedy was shot. For people who were conscious and aware on that day, that was a life-changing experience.
- I was unconscious, on that day, because I was having my first heart surgery, at age 10, to get my first cardiac pacemaker.
That’s the punchline, for me, people.
This year, I am planning on experiencing November differently.
How? I’m making one conscious change.
I am taking November 22nd off from work, and spending that day in a way that’s helpful for me.
I haven’t figured out how I’ll be spending that day. I’ll be working on that, this November.
And already, this November is different.