Well, I may not be getting a lot of sleep — during this Year of Doing Things that Scare the Hell Out of Me — BUT here’s something I’m noticing:
I am solving problems while I am sleeping.
This is what I mean by that:
All year, whenever I’ve had to do something that scares me (like a presentation, for example) (today!), I wake up in the morning — BING! — with ideas that are going to help me that day.
I wake up with specific ideas about How to Do that Anxiety-Provoking Task.
What are the tasks which have been causing me anxiety this year?
(1) Presentations I am making in front of people at the hospital where I work.
(2) New therapy groups I am doing with people.
Why are these particular tasks causing me anxiety?
(1) Because they feel new (once I’m practiced at them, I’m not anxious any more) and
(2) They feel important to me. They matter to me.
The chance for failure — when things feel new AND they are important — that causes my anxiety to go up.
Makes sense, huh?
Thank goodness, for how my brain is working right now!
It helps me have faith in my own process, as I learn and grow this year.
Thanks for reading, today.