This is today’s topic, which will be short (I hope!) because (1) I’m starting this post (about waking up around 3:30 AM) at around 4 AM and (2) I’m selfish.
And what I mean by “selfish” is this. Each and every time I write a post in the blog, I try to focus on my own needs. That is, I try to write something that’s going to help me in my quest to learn and grow throughout this Year of Living Non-Judgmentally. Whenever I write one of these daily blog posts, I try to remember to ask myself this question: “What would help me to write about, right now?”
Oh, no! I want to write a short blog post, but I’ve broached two possibly helpful topics, already: (1) How it helps to balance your needs with other people’s needs and (2) how to deal with waking up in the middle of the night.
How can I remain true to the intent of this blog post AND still keep it short?
How about this? I’ll just write down some random thoughts, and assume that will be “good enough” for this dead-of-night blog post.
I think I’m waking up around 3:30 AM throughout this vacation because I’m sleeping in strange beds.
When I wake up in the middle of the night, I know that I will stay awake longer if I start thinking about Things That Feel Unfinished. Or worries about the future.
And I did have some worries when I woke up this morning around 3:30 AM.
Some Things I’m Worried About
I’m worried that the storm is going to delay my return until Monday afternoon, and make me a day late coming back to work.
I’m worried about rescheduling all the people who were planning on seeing me on my first day back.
My schedule can get REALLY packed, these days. That also worries me.
I’m worried that, instead of the ‘”easy” transition I had planned for my return on a Friday, I will be stressed out by needing to come back to work the very next day.
And this will probably add to my stress: I’ll be having a more arduous return flight than originally scheduled, since I’m going to have a more-than-two-hour overlay in Atlanta that day.
But you know what? As I’m writing this, I’m realizing that I’m doing the cognitive distortion of Fortune Telling. (And none of us can predict the future, no matter how intuitive we think we are.) And I’m getting away from what I encourage other people to do, because I know these things can help.
Some things I encourage others (and myself) to do.
Be in the moment, as much as you can, because that helps.
Let go of fears and worries about the future, because those don’t help.
It helped me to write this blog post.
So, mission accomplished.
I am now going to turn off this computer and try to get back to sleep.
Thanks for reading, everybody.